“Speak what you seek until you see what you’ve said”
I am so glad that I travelled a few weeks ago, because I honestly felt like I was losing it. Losing it to all the pressures that I feel in my daily life. Pressures of trying to make something of myself as woman with dreams, but also a woman who has a family who depended on her. Things were tough. In 2016, I made some progress in admitting that things were not all great. I saw a counsellor and finally spoke to someone objective about my feelings, my fears, and just everything that was going on in my mind. You probably could tell from the lack of blog posts. I sorta lost my mojo for blogging a bit. Something that used to give me so much joy. I lost the drive to post, and when I did, I felt like it wasn’t up to standard. I am pretty hard on myself.
When we entered 2017, I was determined to do things differently. I was and still am determined to think and act in a different way. Some events happened at the end of 2016, when I was just about to lose all hope, that reignited my faith. My prayers about two important things were answered, and I realised that a month earlier, I verbally expressed my desires. I said it out loud, despite a part of me feeling that it was just wishful thinking. I also watched a video which spoke to me.
2017 is a year of speaking things into existence for me. I am determined that this year I will speak good things into my life. I will say it. Alot of the times I will think of something then dismiss it as nonsense, or I will allow my self-doubt to get the better of me. But this time, I will say it and do it. I have some pretty big dreams, and I know you guys have big dreams as well. But it is so easy to let self-doubt and the fear of the unknown just eat away at that dream until it is nothing other than a dream and nothing materialises from it.
Not this year. This year, I want us to strive to achieve those dreams together, no matter how unachievable it may seem, the least you can do is try. Speak it into existence. Say it and believe it. There will be times when you feel down and feel like nothing is working but believe me, if you keep on saying what you want to achieve, you will achieve it.
“Speak those things that are not as though they were”